Actually, when I think about it, I realize it's probably because I felt bad the last couple of days. I found out I might be going back to my section manager job in February. I guess I've grown attached to being a department manager. But that's not a good excuse for missing my happy day posts!
This sounded like the worst news ever in the moment..... And admittedly for a couple of days. In fact, it still stings. But the truth is its not actually a bad thing. I love EFIN! It's the best section and the nicest people, and the funnest scope of work. I can go back to being awesome and crushing the "competition". Muahhahahahahahhaaaaa!
Today I told my boss that I felt the sting but, after thinking about it and making some assumptions in my mind, I've realized I need to be unattached to what happens next. I've decided my goal is to be happy in either case. I think the truth is whatever comes next is going to be temporary anyway. Everything is temporary.....
It's hard not to feel rejected, or embarrassed, or disheartened and de-motivated. I thought for a couple of days of how to stick it to "them", whoever that is. But that wouldn't amount to anything I could be proud of.
I think my happy moment today was telling my boss my honest feelings about the situation and getting it off my chest in a way I can be proud of. He advised me to keep making the most of this opportunity. He praised me for producing results and told me his own experience was similar.
In the end, I only want what's best for me and my family, and I have to believe everything is working out for me, whether I perceive it to be happening now or later. I also have to believe that some of the decision makers in the equation have my best interest at heart because I trust in a person's sincerity and good character.
I've decided to have faith and live in the moment as best as I can! Not easy to do, but also not new lessons to me.
Wish me love! :)
xoxo
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